i've so much to say bt..i've lost wordz..mujhe tujhse pyar hai..janeja..

…Akash kuasha chara kichui na,
Shunnota shudhu jol
Dekho, ekhon shob kichui misrito, tobu charpashe aami
Khuji rekha O aangik
Digonter jonneo kichu nei, shudhu garo ondhokar
Ronger oboshesh
Shob drobbyo milito hoyeche ek jole, Je jol
Aami onubhob kori
Amar chibuke gorano osrur dharai…
-Paul Claudel

Bristi aamar chotobela theke priyo..onek priyo..bristite vijle jiboner shob dukkho bedona amar atta k aaro chepe dhore tobu o keno jani ei bristite vijte khub valo lage. Aajo mone aache choto belar shei dingulo..jokhon ami chader upor giye bristite nachtam, jokhon vishon jhorer raate baire giye aka aka dariye thaktam..amar pashe keu thakto naa..amar koshto keu bujhto naa..hoyto keu chesta o korini..keno korini? karo koshto hole, kauke aka thakte dekhle ami toh tader kache giye tader kotha shonbar shomoy ek barer jonno o didha bodh korini. tahole aamar bela keno shobai ato dure thake? anonder shomoy to keu nazneen k vole naa, jokhon tader hashte iicche kore, tokhon toh keu nazneen er kache ashte vole naa tar lame and stupid jokes er jonno. tahole jokhon dukkho hoy..keno keu thake naki naa aamar haath dhore bolar jonno "ami aachi to..kisher ato koshto? aami toh thakbo tomar sathe..sharajibon." abar vabi..naa, hoyto shobai aache, ami e taderke bujhte deina..ami e koshto mukher hashier pechone lukiye rakhi.

aaj aamar bristi dekhte khub iccha korchilo tobu o aaj sharadin kono brishti chilo na. sharadin anek besto chilam. tobu majhe majhe akasher dike chokh chole geche. megh ..kothai? shei anek prio ...anek mon kharap kore deya megheder dol...tomra kothai?
Shondha neme elo shohorer buke..aami klanto mone bus er moddhe..shahed'er kach theke dure chole ashchi..koshto hoy tai naa? jokhon vishon apon manusher kach theke dure chole jete hoy? janala diye baire dekhchilam..onek maush ei prithibite..barir niche voy voy mone ektu daralam..kichukhon aage shima bolchilo maa naki aamar upor rege aache. shundhar akash..hotath brishti neme elo. anek mon kharap kora brishti..khub icche korchilo bristite vijte..kintu jodi deri hoy, maa bokbe. Ei shohore anek manush. amar charpashe besto chute chole aneke. tobu ami mone mone kichu manushke khuje berai. hariye jaoa manush. jani oderke..ei ochena desh a pabo naa. majhe majhe india r kotha vishon mone pore..jokhon bengali gaan shuni, baa abhijeet'er shie "koyi lauta de woh pyari pyari din" gaanta shuni tokhon chokh deyi apnitei pani jhore. srabon ashe..abar chole jai...protisruti rekhe jai. Abar ashbo. kintu kichu manush keno jani hariye jai jibon theke. ekebarei. Priyo kichu manush chilo..onek priyo..tobu hariye jai..r jara thake tara o chole jabar kotha bole..ekdin tumi o chole jabe taina jaan? amake ekdam aka fele? jani tumi jete chaona..jani tumi amake onek valobasho tobu o hoyto Allah amar shukh beshidin rakhben naa..jano, amar khub voy hoy..kintu jani, i've to b strong..jani i shud get used to all this shit. kintu keno amon hoy aamar sathe? keno amar shob theke o beshidin kichui thake naa ek matro aamar dukkhogulo chara? jano..jara amake chene tara shobai vabe, aamar kono koshto nei, amar theke khushi manush r keu nei, aamar ato bondhu..tobu keno nijeke ato aka lage? keno nisshonggota amake chepe dhore? hoyto aami onek paap kori..tai Allah amake shasti dicche..shoye jabo..koshto kore hole o
chupi chupi barite giye tv'er shamne boshlam..maa ghorer moddhe, natok dekhche..mone mone hocchilo, boka na khele o kono na kono kichu hobe..tar kihukhon por shahed bollo "aamar khub kharap lagche"..bolechilam naa? aamar jibonta ato shundor naa..kichu naa kichu hotei thake..
amar mon kharaper shomoituku r keu pashe na thakuk.. aaj brishti amake aral koreche.. jemon kore meghera.. shanto meghera.. ratri bela..akasher shei chadke..tobu o chadta dekhte shundor laage..aamar jibonta o thik oi rokom..shundor kintu shunnota royei gache..r shara jibon thakbe..

Shomoigulo ekhon khub dusshomoi. Jiboner khub kothin shomoigulor ekta ekhon katacchi. Janina shamne ki hobe.
Manusher bipod jokhon ashe tokhon eka ashe na. Shathe anek-ke niye ashe. Chardik theke shudhu dushongbad niye ashe.
Amar mone hocche ekhon prithibite amar keui nai. Shamne kono aalo dekhte pacchi na. Ki hobe?

wow! i dint sit on the com for lyk ONE WK!! miracles do happen afta all!! haha. life'z been gd tho it has its ups n downz. gonna watch Don on 20th!! yay!! i love love love SRK!!


Preity and SRK walk away with the Lycra MTV Style awards
By IndiaFM News Bureau, October 17, 2006 - 04:38 IST
The Lycra MTV Style awards, the only award show in India which gives awards for being stylish and fashionable concluded last week. It was a grand affair that was attended by many high profile celebrities from all walks of life. The evergreen Rishi Kapoor was bestowed the Maha Style Icon of the Year award. Preity Zinta & Shahrukh Khan were voted the Most Stylish Person in Film’s category in the male and female categories respectively, with their movie Kabhi Alvida Na Kehna also winning Most Stylish Film.

tok abt lukin hot!!! SRK lookzz damn damn damn damn damn hot in DON. i tink im falling in love with him all over agn!! omg! omg! omg!! seriously..im mad abt him! how can someone ve such great acting skills, great personality and yet super hot lookz!! if i cud, i wud...aah nvm. kol me insane or whtevr im head over heels in love with srk. he's juicy! hahaz. alrite..i've gotta digest wht i jst saw..my eyes r still on the com screen!! cant tk my eyes off u srk..i loooooove u jaan!! i love love love u!! ohh..yet another reason why i'd watch DON izz coz my darling Arjun Rampal's acting! he makes me go o la la. wait...hu do i love agn?? BOTH!! bt of courz i love srk more!! ok..enuf abt those stars. sadly, they're nvr gonna b mine!! nazneen, wake up!! hahaz. even if they were gonna b mine, thx bt no thx..amar jaan ami peye gachi..amar r karo chaina!!



P.S..i jst checked the forum. lot of ppl r goin mad ova DON..SRK izz all mine peepz!! back off!! lolz. ur Dhoom 2 izz sooooooooo gonna lose to Don Shahed!! yay!!

hello blogger world!! missed me? u better!! hahazz. newz of the day: MY EXAMZ ARE OVER!!! can i lyk scream?????!! hahaz. updatez of life..
firstly i wanna tok abt one of the most special day of my life..4th Oct'06. wht happened? oh well..TOP SECRET!! hahaz. i wish i cud tell the world abt it bt dang, my bro might b reading tis!! how sad izz tht!! some tingz r better written in diaries eh? today was vig's mom's first death anniversary..cant believe i had forgotten.

msg for vig:- "hey best fren..u noe tht she's watchin over ya so dun b sad coz if u are, she wun lyk it. u've got a long way to go..so look ahead n move on. i noe its hard n i also noe tht no matter wht i say itz nt gonna mk a diff..i still wanna try. i still wanna tell u tht i care and i want u to smile, the way u did b4..cheer up, ur mom's always wid u..she loves u jst as much as u love her.."

dun ve the mood to ryt today..i feel so sad for vig..its been 5 yrs of our frenship..time flies na?

stressssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss..NOT! hahaz. i tink im slackin alot lately!!! its lyk i cant study. no mood!! and wen i gt the mood, im too tired! wth. A mathzz tmr!! another subj tht im depending on to pull m thru!! pray for me!! thani'z bdae was a disaster. all me planzz were ruined. thx to i-dun-wanna-mention-who! bt oh wellzz..tingz r bk to normal n i dun wanna live wid any kinda grudge against ppl! hahaz. life's goin smooth..very very very smooth..thx to certain someone..im filled wid smilezz, joy n happiness..i love love love love love YOU..SHAHRUKH KHAN!! hahaz.

wow! wow! wow! ive got sooooooooo much to say bt then..no tym!!! im still left wid two more pages to study for SS. Ya Allah..plz let me do well!! Besta luck for ur examz ppl!!